sábado, 17 de octubre de 2009

We're people watching...





Well I'm just people watching
The other people watching me
And we're all people watching
The other people watching we
We're as lonely as we wanted to be
We're all as lonely as we wanted to be
Just as lonely as we wanted to be
I'm just you, you're just me
But it's only true, if we believe
Well there really ain't no use in stopping
What nobody never told me not to do
So I'll keep people watching, watching me now
Finding my way back to you
We're as lonely as we wanted to be
We're all as lonely as we wanted to be
I'm just as lonely as I wanted to be
I'm just you, you're just me
But it's only true, if we believe
I see so many feet going so many ways
People passing by, they got nothing to say
All on our own, just watching and confused
Nobody told me what to do
I can't stop breaking all the rules
And I'm just people watching
The other people watching me
We're all people watching
The other people watching we
We're as lonely as we wanted to be
We're not so lonely as we wanted to be
I'm just as lonely as I wanted to be
Not so lonely
Lonely, lonely, lonely



I've always felt lonely, ever since I was a kid. Back then, I used to be that kind of stupid person who did anything to be 'liked'. Luckily, I don't do that anymore (not that being like that was of any use anyway), but my loneliness is still the same. I wonder why... I know I have friends and family who love me very much, but... I still feel like I'm on the outside looking in (...) I got to turn my world around, cos it keeps on knocking me down ♪, and also even more like My soul is in a coma, but none of my friends can tell that I'm reaching out and getting nothing...


Papa Roach=

domingo, 11 de octubre de 2009

Passion.

I don't understand how people can live without feeling passionate towards anything. I've tried- I've put myself in their shoes, I've thought about reasons or benefits that it could have... but I'm lost. I would find such an existence so terribly, so sadly, boring, dull, dead... empty.
I can't understand how some of my friends live their lives like that, and they're perfectly happy. Of course I don't mean that they shouldn't be, I just can't understand it. Yes, they enjoy dancing, being with their friends and going to the cinema- the usual. And that's it. That's it. How can that be it? How can their happiness be so... limited, shall I say? I don't know if it's the correct term, but that's how I see it. I don't think there's anything they're "addicted" to, anything that makes life worth living it just to avoid losing it- be it love, life, music, art, or whatever. I think that's why they're so... indifferent when they're asked about what career they'll choose. They're like "I don't know, I could do this or that I guess...". Do they even have dreams?
Holy sh**, I hadn't even wondered about that. I spend half of my days daydreaming (which obviously isn't healthy), but they must have some kind of dream, as crazy as it may be, right? I'm not expecting to share a stage with Avenged Sevenfold♥, but if you ask me what my dream is, I can answer without a doubt that it's being able to make music, have a band, and be able to live off it. If I asked them, I wonder if they'd know... I now feel obligated to ask them that question, and their answer will probably be wtf? and a weird look, but I still have to try or I'll never know. Maybe they're just like me, scared of their dreams and so they won't share them... (I know I shouldn't be scared and I should be able to shout it to the whole world, but when I'm asked about it I keep answering "I don't know". Partially, because it's way easier to say that. It saves me a lot of "explaining"- and btw, why if somebody wants to study, for example, medicine, they don't have to say anything, yet if somebody wants to do music they have to "explain themselves"? I don't see the difference.)

Anyway, what was the point of all this....? I can't remember anymore. I just know I came and wrote this because I had been thinking about it and wanting to write it for a few days but kept forgetting... hopefully tomorrow I'll remember and edit this entry :)

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[Random]: Also, I love the way in which Jason Mraz keeps inspiring me ♥ His songs clearly keep dancing around my head without my aknowledging (?) it, and so I keep getting ideas for avatars, signatures, drawings... things I seldomly (or never, in the case of digital art) did, and now I keep doing something new of the sort everyday, which is awesome :D I love to learn♥

Here's a sample:


And last but not least, today I woke up and wrote the following "lyrics":


Would you please
hurry up a bit?
But don't forget to
watch your step
I don't even know you
and I'm already making requests,
but time is ticking away
and I'm getting behind
all these rocks, all these traps

Will we hold our hands
and watch the sun hide
behind the ocean,
while a fresh breeze
tickles our skin?
No, I hope we won't need
to travel to meet Heaven
All we'll need is eachother
A walk in the park,
a race to the car,
that we'll be enough
as long as we're together

Oh, love
I cry for your presence,
for your company,
for your heart.



Ewww, it's really cheesy/corny/whateverthewordis.. Gah. Still, I want critics. Is it too cliché? and I really dislike that last part. I know I had a better idea but while writing the rest I forgot it D: Obviously this wouldn't be a "song" because it doesn't even have a structure and it's probably incoherent, too. But hey, it's a start! I still have to look all that I've written to make it better, but I still don't feel like doing it so... some other day.

Thanks for taking the time to read this ♥

miércoles, 7 de octubre de 2009

How?

That's today's question.

How can I speak when I have no voice? Why would I scream if still noone will hear me?
How can I be when I have no presence?
How can I show myself if I'm hiding?
How can I help when I can't even listen?
How can I change to something if I'm nothing? How can I make sense when I'm so full of contradictions?
How can I stand up when I can't even stand still?
How can I move when all I want is to slow down?
How can I keep myself together if every two seconds I feel another part of me drifting apart?
How can I be close to others if I'm closed like a pandora box?



H O W ?


That's what I'm going to find out. There's no other chance; after all, I see life as a win-win situation.

martes, 6 de octubre de 2009

Yes...

I will help.
I will make.
I will create.
I will change.
I will move.
I will fight.

.I WON'T LOSE AGAINST MYSELF.

I will dream. I will struggle. I will accomplish.

I will learn. I will remember.

.I will demostrate that the only limits we have are those we impose ourselves.


I will love


I will make it all MINE.